Result

Result finally out..

i am safe..

graduation on the 20th dec...

:)

Tuesday is the last paper...last exam in my 3 years degree course (i hope)..

somehow..not really have the mood to study...

dunno why...haih...

stress, but no mood to study...

keep thking wat to do after exam :P

and keep worrying bout how to search for a job....

haih...

hopefully i can survive this sem...

freaking out.....

freaking out now...

one more day to my exam..and i still haven finish study for that stupid exam...

plus wed paper also haven study..how ar how???

so regret for wasting time....

cant really concentrate on study...dunno y...

is it because of this is the last semester, thats y have no motivation to study?

hopefully i can survive..

god bless me...

haih..

worry for him also...:(

i know i created alot of problems, when i stress i talk...

cant sleep, i talk...

when i cant study, i talk...

which make you have lesser time to study...i am sorry...

jia you together k?

u dun panic i also dun panic k??

hate exam

haih.....

i wanna die d..

GG d this time...

exam on the 15th...and i haven even finish study for one subject..how??

i got no mood to study..

not no mood..

is i am too stress to study...

how??

i damn scare i will fail this sem..

if i fail*touch wood*..i will have to wait for half a year to retake the subject ler...

how????

and my parents already bought ticket here..for my graduation..if i fail...how???

sob..i really cant imagine the consequences....hopefully i can pass,i dun aim high..jz a p2 will do..:)

haih.....

i seriously hate exam!!!!!!!

STRESSSS

exam coming..first paper is on the 15 NOV

but..i haven start study for my exam..

plus i still have 3 assignments haven due....

haih....

stress like hell...

just dunno what happen,i like to think of non-sense this few days...

which make me more stress...but i cant stop it..:(

really need to think of one way to destress....

PS: i miss home....

Royal Adelaide Show

Went to Royal Adelaide Show last Saturday...

had lots of fun there...

Had a great day..but super tiring...

and got sick the next day..:(

hopefully can recover by this friday....

Can't wait for Alice Spring trip...:)

last time and now

Look back some old pictures just now,

feel so sad...i grew fat a lot compared to last time...

i really really should cut down on my meal and on diet already...

but i will just say, won't be able to do that...:P

this is the pic during end of 2007

this one is during October 2009

This one is around July 2010..

seriously..i GREW FAT A LOT!!!

everyday supper since i came to australia..

plus the food here damn big potion, make me eat more and more...

haih....

first thing i will do when back in malaysia : ON DIET!!!

sien

THE assignment due on monday...i still have 500 words to go...

SBA test on monday,but i haven study....

I am wasting my time, fb-ing, reading novel, dreaming, blogging,sleeping......

haih...

tonight jason's place got party..but i cant go, cox din finish my work yet..:(

wanna go out and play, dun wan study d...no mood....

haih...

i wan holiday,i wan rest,i wan go home!!!!

guilty

Felt so guilty,

accidentally broke thiam ping's camera..:(

it was an accident, when lerr passed the camera to me, it dropped...

hope the camera can be repair...

need to save abit and pay him back, or buy a new camera for him liao...

kean's 24th birthday pre-celebration

Yesterday was a crazy night...

Organized a drinking party at my place for kean's 24th birthday..

Guest list:Michelle, Yeejin, Su zhen, Chee Cheng, Lewayne, Weiling, Sean, Joe, Janet, Jian Shern, Ler, Yen Wen, Kelvin, Winnie, Jeffrey, Eric, Vernon, Erbert, Sam, Malvin, Waihoe, Ping Yang, Seng Keng, Kenneth, Yeh Xiong, Teck Weng

The main purpose of this party, wanna see kean drink 24 shots...haha..

I bought 5 bottle of hard liquor: balck label, bacardi 151, teacher, Tequila and chivas, and 60 bottles of beer.. at the end of the party, left 6 bottle of beer, chivas and quarter bottle of tequila...kean himself already finish more than half bottle of the black label..:P

The party end around 3am, but me thiam ping and kean stay up to 5am ( i think), chit chatting with yeh xiong and the gang..

It was really fun and crazy..

Thanks to Thiam ping for helping me to organize this party..

and Thanks to Yeh Xiong and the gang for helping me to buy liquor and beer and borrow me the speakers...

For those who attend...hope you all enjoy it...:)

GI

Read GI reading just now...Don't understand what the author trying to say..==

hope i can get a good tutor for this subject..:)

relationship

Relationship is really killing people...

Don't really understand why people can do till this extend for a relationship..

Is it worth it? Is it the only way?

If wanna let go, please let go COMPLETELY..

Why wanna hold part of it when u already planing to let go?

Haih.....confused....:(

end of the holiday

3 weeks holidays going end soon~~~haih..

A lot of things happen during this holiday..good and bad...

Wasted alot of times during this holiday,so regret did not go back malaysia...very miss my parents and my friends in malaysia..haih...

went to melbourne with friends...had lots of fun there..^^

i met jj and shu yuan there..tot can met ying there wan but unfortunately she went travel with her friends..haih..

this monday is first day of new semester.Have to study hard already..is my FINAL semester...hehe..can go back Malaysia dy...

hope can have a good begining of my new semester..:)

lost?

y i wanna put myself into this situation?

can somebody tell me what should i do?

i feel so lost now......

help me pls...

i dun care who,just pull me out of this situation pls....

done with exam

Before exam finish:

1.everyday sleep late

2.everyday study

3.everyday worry what will be the question

4.everyday think of how to allocate time to study

After exam:

1.everyday sleep

2.everyday facebook/gaming

3.everyday think of how to play

the life between after exam and before exam is so different...lol

well,exam this time,not really good...

for tax: thiam ping got pass year paper frm his fren, i did the question, the ans provided is not as good as the ans given by Gerard..but is almost similar with the exam question for trust and partnership..forwarded the question back to Malaysia, but din forward to my frens here, i am so sorry for my carelessness...:( and i did a big mistake in the exam..i din separate my ans into 2 different ans booklet...haih..lucky Gerard say i still can get my marks for it..or not 25 marks gone....

for PFM:the gg-est subject...i din sleep the day before this exam..just study study study...drank 2 cup of nescafe,end up-vomit twice.....haih...very worry for this paper seriously,alot of stuff i dunno how to do,dunno wat the question asking,dunno wat Harjap expect from us...haih..seriously this is a PRAY FOR ME subject.....

for FP:hmm..i tot this was the easiest paper and i did not really focus much in this exam...and i was wrong!!!after finish my cheat sheet at 1 smthg am, Kean saw the notes that huisan passed to us in hard copy,and there are some questions inside..i tried to do but i dunno how to ans the question at all...but luckily i got read through the question before i slept and before go in the exam hall, or not i wont be able to answer the question at all in the exam hall...the way Peter Lennox ask the question in exam is so different with the tutorial question..and thx to our lovely tutor,i dunno wat is goin on about FP...haih

for audit: last paper of this sem..don't really have much exam mood when taking this paper...the question is almost similar with the past year exam question,but somehow,i dun really know how to answer the question....the points are in my mind,but i just dunno how to write it out....haih

hope i can pass all the subject this sem..:)

the feeling of finish exam...is damn nice............hahaha

Fuck You - Lily Allen Official Music Video

Fuck You Very Much

Songwriters: Allen, Lily Rose; Kurstin, Gregory;

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor

So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it

Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

exam

left one more paper...then i am free...

so tired of exam and studying d.....

sleep not more than 5 hours per day...

din sleep before pfm exam....

i am gonna sleep gao gao after my audit paper..

haven study for my audit paper...and the paper is on monday...how???sob

hope the time fly faster............so i can finish my exam faster....

audit

Joined audit tutorial class this afternoon, after went in, only know that that class is High Achieving class..

the people there,very discriminating..zzz....

like they are the only students that is good in study...

haih..not like others ppl cant sign up that class..not like they are very good in studying....

need to be so discriminating or not....

spoil my mood only..after attending that class,i totally don't have the mood to study...

so pissed with their attitude...

especially the "Wan Tan"...talk non-stop,and the answer she gave also not really that good..still show us the "lansi" face when we walked in....zzzz.......

pissed~~~~~~

thiam ping's assignment got some problems...his face damn scary lar~~~~lol....

pissed!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

Super Pissed!!!!!!!!

why the people nowadays damn like to gossip ler???

NOTHING better to do already???why can't they just mind their own business???if so free..go take some courses lar,why wanna waste the time on GOSSIPING?!?!?!

Take care of your own life, Take care of YOUR own kids..don't go and gossip about other's people kids when you dunno how to take care of your own mouth!!!

What the hell.....

What is so nice about gossiping har??wanna gossip,gossip at a private place lar,y wanna let the whole world know about it??just know how to say people, talk bout other's people life, why can't just take the time and look at yourself...like you all got nth to let people to gossip about?!?!

HALLOOOOO...please lar....now already 21 century lar, stop being so close-minded lar...

and please MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!!!!!!!!

嫁給你是她一生的賭注，你怎麼捨得讓她輸！

兩個人每天面對面上班。她有時候會看著他走神兒。他有張好看而略微頹廢的臉，看得多了，他會注意到她，便總是衝著她笑。她低下頭，臉突然就紅了。

很快，周圍的同事也窺測出她的心事來，頻繁開起他倆的玩笑。一來二去，他和她竟真成了戀人。

他們都到了結婚的年齡。那天一起吃飯的時候，她猶豫著，提到了婚事。當時他愣了一下，沒有作答，半天才囁嚅著說"只怕……只怕以後，妳跟著我會吃苦"

不怕的。她小聲說。

他不再說話，輕輕歎了口氣，在她看來，他算是答應了。

回到家，她把兩人的事告訴父母，遭到強烈反對。父親和他們是一個單位的，對他的印象不好，一直就反對他們交往。

理由是，他是不上進的男人，懶散，沒事業心，還跟外面社會上一些不務正業的年輕人來往，女人跟了他以後，以後絕對沒有好日子過。

尤其現在，工廠效益每況愈下，有能力的人都自己出去闖，而他還在混著，一個月只有幾百塊錢。這樣的男人，沒前途的。

不僅父母，當初開他們玩笑的同事中，和她關係走的近的，也反對她嫁他，理由和父母一樣，說這樣的男人喜歡可以，絕對不能當丈夫。

她卻鐵了心一般，不管誰勸，就是一句話：我就要跟他。

父母失望至極，母親衝她嚷：你這是拿自己的幸福做賭注！

她抬起頭，斬釘截鐵：就算是所有人都不看好，就算會輸，我也認了。

所有人的阻止都無濟於事，24歲，她嫁他為妻。租了套小房子，從家裡搬了出去。這也似乎更證明了大家的猜測，他是她本命年的劫。

可事實卻出乎所有人的意料，結婚後的他像換了個人似的，分外刻苦努力起來。他先是離開半死不活的廠子，斷了外面那幫亂七八糟的朋友，去一傢俬企跑起業務。

開始時沒底薪，他又是外行，不知道走了多少彎路，費了多少心思，總算艱難的在那家公司站住了腳。

那一年，她看著他變得又黑又瘦，大夏天頂著太陽走在快被曬化的柏油馬路上，汗都顧不上擦。晚上幾乎沒有在10點之前回來過，一回家，倒在床上，衣服不脫就睡著了。

一年後，他的工作走上正軌，業務提成漸漸多了起來，而她卻下崗了。他不讓她再出去工作了，安心在家裡，打理家務等著做母親。

孩子出生的時候，他做了業務經理，手裡有大把的客戶，還在業餘時間重新學了英語和日語。公司給他配了車，他們按揭買了新房，每個人都看見了他的大好前途。

這時的她，因為生孩子胖了許多，又總不出門，穿衣服隨意起來，和他站在一起，竟有種不相配的感覺。

此時，當初替他擔憂過的人又開始有了新的擔憂，擔心長著一對桃花眼的男人，會在這個時候離她而去。這個年頭這樣的事，簡直就是數不勝數。

但這次，大家又看錯了他，在他人生和事業不斷攀升的日子裡，他愛她始終如一。那愛，不知比戀愛時紮實了多少倍，是貼心貼肺的呵護。

從衣食住行的大事到心情喜好的小事，他面面俱到，從來沒有忽略過。從她坐月子起，每天晚上，都是他給她洗腳，這個習慣一直被他保留了下來。

他從來不隱瞞對她的感情，有時同時和朋友開玩笑說：什麼都換了，現在該換老婆了吧。他搖頭，認真的說：這輩子，就是她了。

她的幸福，讓所有人無話可說。其實當初她也不確定會擁有這樣的幸福，那時她只是愛這個男子，捨不得離開他。哪怕跟著他吃苦，像她說的，她認了。

那天晚上，他又給她洗腳，溫暖在水中，他一如既往，把她的腳握在掌心。她忽然笑著問：怎麼會對我這麼好？這個問題其實已經在她心裡存了很久，她甚至還想問：如何會在就婚後，變了一個人？只是覺得不妥，所以只問了這一句，半開玩笑的口吻。

他依舊蹲在她的面前，握著她的腳，抬起頭來，看了她片刻，然後認真的說：因為當初，妳拿了自己一生的幸福做賭注，要跟著我，你是這個世界上唯一這樣信任我的人，嫁給我是妳一生的賭注，我怎麼捨得讓妳輸。

她看見，向來愛說愛笑的他，說完這句話，眼圈紅了。
作為男人，不能讓一個能把自己終身幸福都押在你身上的女人輸，因為你輸不起，愛你的那個女人賭上她的青春和下半輩子更輸不起!!

my 21st birthday

After so long..finally get my birthday pic frm kelvin and danny...

got a surprise party from all my frens...

that friday,the girls bring me out for shopping, let the guys have the time to prepare...

damn shock when i saw so many ppl in my fren's house...

tot just going out for dinner..but end up....hohoho....

tried laughing gas that day..damn high...

suppose to go clubbing with some of my friends,but i was drank cause they asked me drank 3 cup of black label...zzz...

thanks to kean for organizing this big party....thanks for kelvin for preparing the foods..thanks to vern,jeff,eric and sylvia for borrowing their house....thanks to thiam ping for LYING to me...hahaha...thanks to everybody that helps him and celebrated the big day with me...

finally~

finally...after so long...

no more assignments!!!

today is the last day to do assignments..

PFM...the horror sub...

kean and thiam ping still restructuring the essay..and i feel so useless cox i am blogging and fb-ing when they are doin work..hoho...

winter is coming..damn bloody cold here...

keep ask my mum to post cloth for me cox is too exp to buy here..haha...

exam coming..but i have no motivation to study..haih....how ar??

update~

just realize that i didn't update my blog for long time...hahaha..

so...now update lu~~~

life in Australia...

already been in Australia for around 2 months...

really miss home...miss malaysia food..miss my friend...haih...

not really used the the way the lecturer teaching here...haih...no support,no tips, no consultation...i am dying soon...

but,met a lot of new friends, mostly is from taylor's...

and learn to be independent, cook myself, wash the cloths, clean the house, buy grocery...

do a lot of things that i won't do in malaysia..because got my mama...hehehe..

haih....miss my parents lar....

ps:will update my birthday stuff when i get the pics...:)

♥ 做到这些时再叫他老公吧 ♥

男朋友在乎你的体重有没有升；老公在乎你今晚有没有吃饱
男朋友在乎你今天打扮的够不够漂亮；老公在乎你今天穿的那么少会不会冻着
当你遇到困难的事情时候，男朋友会安慰你；老公会在第一时间赶到男朋友在乎你今天开心过没有；老公会在乎你今天遇到不开心的事没有
男朋友只给你买漂亮的时装；老公给你买温暖的羽绒服男朋友和哥们吃饭不会想你在干什么 吃饭怎么办；老公和哥们吃饭会不踏实 时不时给你发信息，一遍遍告诉你他很快就会回来
如果你够漂亮，男朋友会考虑要不要把你带给他的朋友看，长长面子：如果你不够漂亮，你的老公走到哪都会带着你，也许你没有勇气，但是他会给你鼓励。
男朋友的家人如果不喜欢你，他会放弃你：老公的家人如果不喜欢你，他会尽自己最大的努力去保护你。
男朋友觉的你们不合适，他会走开，即使他还喜欢你；如果全世界都觉得你们不合适，可是你的老公还是会守候你。
男朋友只会限于他所认为的人知道你的存在；老公会告诉整个世界：你是他的宝贝。
男朋友打完电话会急急挂掉；老公会等你挂断，他才会挂断。
男朋友会在你烦闷的时候让你自己静静；老公会留下来跟你吵架，帮你发泄。
男朋友在你特殊的几天里会躲着你；老公会在那几天给你冲热水，给你讲笑话。
男朋友会把你说分手当真；老公会在你说分手之后挽留你，因为他知道你希望被挽留，并不想走。
男朋友会在自己有能力的范围内满足你；老公会付出一切都要满足你，即使满足不了，他还是会尽最大努力。
男朋友想的明天和未来很少；老公会把你们以后的宝宝名字都取好。
男朋友不敢给承诺，给了也未必做到。老公敢于做出了承诺，而且一定会做到。
男朋友不敢相信你们的爱情；老公会把娶你当做他的人生目标，并且渴望和你一起变老。

亲爱的朋友们，当你觉得他做到这些时再叫他老公吧！
因为老公才是这个世界上真正爱你的男人

不开心

不开心，
越来越不开心。。。

这几天，听到的消息，
不是跟男朋友吵架，就是跟男朋友分手，
想劝人家，可是自己，自身难保。。
分分合合，人生常事，那又何必太在乎呢？

该改改自己的习惯了。。
放手，等于放过自己。。
在乎，等于给别人机会伤害自己。。
所以，应该学会放手了。。。

其实每个女生都是一个傻丫头~

一。和她发短信时，回复一定要快，让她觉得你放下手上的事情立刻回复她，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你很在乎她。

­­二。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道“晚安”的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。即便是她已经昏昏睡去，第二天一醒来也会立刻去查收信息。 ­­

三。看到她的未接电话要立刻打过去，任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。 ­­

四。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你不要生气，因为她的不想就是想。 ­­

五。千万要记得女生都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。也不要在她表现心疼、吃醋、关心你的时候不停地问，只要偷偷地笑心里甜就够了，也许她不想让你知道她无时无刻不在想对你好。

­­六。经常去她的空间逛逛，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的痕迹也会很开心，也许有些心情就是为你而写。顺便看看她的心情日志什么的，还有她好友的留言，多知道点她的小秘密挺好，准备惊喜也容易点。 ­­

七。牵了手就不要轻易说分手，吵架的时候也不要说。如果她赌气跑开，只要一个用力的拥抱就能让她安静，就能让她感觉到你的爱。希望你能懂她离开时想要被挽留，如果说出口那只是乞求来的温柔。

­­八。开始一段新的恋情的前提是放下前面的所有恋情，你可以把她们给你的信物和美好记忆保留着，但是请把这些用一个匣子藏在她永远不会发现的地方，因为那些她不知道的事对于她是致命的伤害。记住女生都是敏感的动物。

­­九。如果一时冲动分了手，请给彼此冷却的时间，想清楚她就是你想要的人就勇敢地告诉她，不管用什么手段，死皮赖脸也好让她回到你身边就好。如果真的爱她就不要放开她，不要让她伤心，不要让她流泪，你明明知道她有多傻，她会傻傻等你的，你知道女生的青春有多么宝贵么！如果你还心疼她绝不要在分手不到一个月就移情别恋，这样等于在她伤口上撒盐。请你交换角色想一想，如果你女朋友和你分手第二天就在别的男人怀里开心地笑，你的心会有多痛？­­

如果你有一个傻丫头，请你好好珍惜她好好爱她好吗？也许你不知道你的一句关心，你的一个微笑，你的一个吻，一个拥抱，一个摸头发的动作都是她的幸福，其实她要的只是这么简单。她不奢求太多的惊喜，太多的浪漫，有你就是她所有的幸福。不要轻易放开她，因为她是傻丫头，她会在别人面前装的很强，对每个人微笑，然后半夜一个人躲在楼梯拐角处偷偷哭啼，她会不停地听着和你有关的歌，默默关注着你，默默的生病，默默的流泪，她会开始变的沉默，变得开始唱悲伤的歌，弹悲伤的曲子。­如果你真的有一个傻丫头请记得你说的话好吗？请你让她幸福，给她幸福，要自信的对她说：“我会让你变成全世界最幸福的人，我要让所有的人都羡慕你有一个好老公。”

伤心，
到头来，只有我太过在乎，太过紧张。。。
悲哀，
等了一天，换来少于五分钟的沟通。。。
好多事情想说，可是都没机会。。。


唉～
不想太在乎，
不想太紧张，
不想再等待，
不想再受伤，
不想，什么都不想，
只想回到过去，平平静静地过日子。。。

他已经进入我的世界，可我？却只在他世界外徘徊。。。
好想找个人来谈谈。。。。

2010

Year 2010..
Didn't have a good start....problems...getting more and more serious..
Day by day,problems arise..haven solve A, B arise,then CDE...then quarrel non-stop..haih..
End up..taking a break...
is a good thing i think...have time to think what you want...what are the problems...what are the solutions..

hmmp....seriously...a relationship,really hard to maintain...love, trust, responsibility, commitment, toleration, freedom, jealousy etc etc..how to balance it??

when there is a problem in a relationship,people will appreciate their friendship..because friends are always there to help you,listen to you, give advice..cant really imagine life without friends..

well..just let it be..time will solve everything.....